Signs of the future
Images of a life I always wished for
Everything I ever wanted
Getting into my head
How can I turn these images
Into a reality
My mind tells me I’m useless
My heart beats faster
Faster than usual
My mind continues it’s talk
Saying I have nothing to offer the world
You should know better
Wasting my years to this point
I told myself in the corner of my bed
Crying my eyes out
My tears fail to come down from their comfortable zone
I plead with them
Have mercy on me
Kindly come down
Flow into my cheeks like a waterfall
I’ll pay you so please come down
They listen and descend
Gosh I could feel the bitterness inside of me
How on Earth did I waste these years
Full of pain
People I was there for
Now I lost all
No one cares
No not even one
Darkness all around me
Tears won’t stop flowing
Flooding my face like the streams of water
Like the divergent river
Descending into the next level of pain
My life is but a wind
It goeth to and fro
It must have been tired staying in a body like mine
I want it all to end
Even so, I fear death
My music playing in the background
The only person
I can reply on in a moment as dark as this
Even God will not forgive me
Why take my life
Why end it all
There is hope
I say sadly to myself
Only to find out there’s
A slight piece of strength within my soul
Holding on to it. I weep the more
Life huh
Never balanced
Let the tears flow I said
Let me cry myself to sleep
Maybe sleep will pamper me in the end
Gently I drift off to sleep.
Locked up in the upper room of my thoughts
Waiting for hope
Praying it comes before I hurt myself
