Agony

The Lord knows my heart
Father forgive me
For all the bitterness
I carry inside

Each day feels like
It’s never going to come
Been used to the pain

I feel so numb right now
Used to the treatment
Just like a medication
So sad yet I take it everyday

For this pain
I have to carry
Like a bag of rice
I need not tarry

To the destination
I know not off
Lost in the desert
I feel my heart skip

No water
No not even a mirage
My knees shake
Yes in this wilderness

I try to be outspoken
Hitting hard on the sand
Yet they slip in between my hands

Without warning
They encamp around me
Still my pain
Yes my pain

Carried over my head
I seize to be fooled
Butteries flows from my heart

Pain strengthens me
Each day I pass out
I can’t take this anymore
No not anymore

Anyone out there
Hearing this
Listening to these words I speak

Words that have water
They flow like a river
My pain is a waterfall
Pouring down into the ocean
Compiling into the thing
I don’t want it to be

Yet I’m still
Can’t move
Like a call in between my hands
Just observing
Yeah
Just observing